Yesterday, I was playing with my god-daughter and something strike me.
She was playing with her little new toy - the red light bulb lantern.
She was holding it and playing with it until..
the light start shining on the floor and all around as we start turning the lantern.
She chase after the light on the floor,
she tried very hard to catch it and hold it on her hand..
she put down the lantern and she can't find the light at all.
When I saw this, I laughed and said,"why did u chase after the false thing instead of holding the lantern?"
I guess at that point, this scene strike me..
cos' it seems like I became her ...
I hold on to some things and cherished them like something very close to my heart..
and somehow it is just some "light" shone from the real thing..
I am only chasing hard and trying to hold it with my hands..
I put down things to get it.. yet I can't have it or find it at all..
I guess I should laugh at myself and said,"why did I chase after the false thing instead of holding on to the real ones?"
how clear the picture is!!
would I lose this picture again?..
I do not know but surely it came into my mind now
and I shall hold on to it till I can't remember it anymore..
-jerl
Monday, September 27, 2004
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
Evil Nature
Everyone has an evil nature,
some choose to believe everyone is born good,
I choose to believe otherwise.
Human are evil in nature, given the right time, right situation, they would strife to control and manipulate.
You may or may not have a faith, it doesn't take the evilness away, it only keeps it in control. Thus, if loosen, we are all "devils" inside.
It emerges in all sorts of situation, especially ugly when there is fame and fortune. It would also emerge to protect oneself from anything that is perceived as harmful.
I never believe in altruism. We do all things for a reason.. with an intent.. be it consciously or sub-consciously. However, not many of us reason all our actions and reactions. Some of us even live in self denial that they are righteous and good. I don't believe in sacrificial love, the cross is carried for a reason. Nothing comes without a price.
The love of any kind comes with a condition attached. whether or not it is known or unknown.. if you argued that a parent die for a child cos of pure love, i would believe that is naive cos the parent died so that
he wouldn't live with the guilty of not giving, the conscience that may prick and torture him for the rest of his life,
the social pressure, social standards that he may or may not face
and the unpredictable of the consequence could have subconsciously
lead him to such decision.
There is no pure love per se.
Even yearn to be loved is an evil intent! Aren't we created for that reason..
is it really cos just pure love or cos of loneliness or just the need to be loved?
It is already evil to create for the very pleasure of oneself.
Somehow.. we inherit it in our blood.. in us ...and it'll never ever leave us
alone...
Call me a cynic and skeptic if u want but i still believe evil nature looms in us.
-jerl
Human are evil in nature, given the right time, right situation, they would strife to control and manipulate.
You may or may not have a faith, it doesn't take the evilness away, it only keeps it in control. Thus, if loosen, we are all "devils" inside.
It emerges in all sorts of situation, especially ugly when there is fame and fortune. It would also emerge to protect oneself from anything that is perceived as harmful.
I never believe in altruism. We do all things for a reason.. with an intent.. be it consciously or sub-consciously. However, not many of us reason all our actions and reactions. Some of us even live in self denial that they are righteous and good. I don't believe in sacrificial love, the cross is carried for a reason. Nothing comes without a price.
The love of any kind comes with a condition attached. whether or not it is known or unknown.. if you argued that a parent die for a child cos of pure love, i would believe that is naive cos the parent died so that
he wouldn't live with the guilty of not giving, the conscience that may prick and torture him for the rest of his life,
the social pressure, social standards that he may or may not face
and the unpredictable of the consequence could have subconsciously
lead him to such decision.
There is no pure love per se.
Even yearn to be loved is an evil intent! Aren't we created for that reason..
is it really cos just pure love or cos of loneliness or just the need to be loved?
It is already evil to create for the very pleasure of oneself.
Somehow.. we inherit it in our blood.. in us ...and it'll never ever leave us
alone...
Call me a cynic and skeptic if u want but i still believe evil nature looms in us.
-jerl
Friday, September 03, 2004
Terrorism
This word has risen from nowhere,
above the level that they deserves.
To me it is just such a big joke that
everyone fear of them..
and worst of all some talked about them as if they are some heros.
They are such a bunch of losers and cowards,
who kill the innocents to elevate their own worth.
They need to hide behind some scares, some kidnaps...
like the kid who hide behind the mother's dress.
i wonder if their parents feel the shame,
i wonder if they have any conscience.
if they want to kill,
why do they need to hide behind some god's name?
are they going after people whom they feel inferior to?
or they go for people whom they could never be better than?
or going for people who can barely fight them?
Terrorism is really cowardism..
it is just the world who gives them all the publicity
that makes them think that they are some heros
whom we know are just zeros.
Terrorists are just some blind leading the blind..
hope they would stumble and fall..
or hope their eyes would be cured soon.
perhaps they only need a new guide stick
to lead them on the right path..
or perhaps a guide dog.. or now they need a guide cat..
(guess we all know why.. :P)
Cowards.. Cowards.. Cowards.. i wonder how this word come about..
Everybody.. do a chicken dance for them..
ne ne ne ne ne ne ne.. quack quack quack quack..
-jer
above the level that they deserves.
To me it is just such a big joke that
everyone fear of them..
and worst of all some talked about them as if they are some heros.
They are such a bunch of losers and cowards,
who kill the innocents to elevate their own worth.
They need to hide behind some scares, some kidnaps...
like the kid who hide behind the mother's dress.
i wonder if their parents feel the shame,
i wonder if they have any conscience.
if they want to kill,
why do they need to hide behind some god's name?
are they going after people whom they feel inferior to?
or they go for people whom they could never be better than?
or going for people who can barely fight them?
Terrorism is really cowardism..
it is just the world who gives them all the publicity
that makes them think that they are some heros
whom we know are just zeros.
Terrorists are just some blind leading the blind..
hope they would stumble and fall..
or hope their eyes would be cured soon.
perhaps they only need a new guide stick
to lead them on the right path..
or perhaps a guide dog.. or now they need a guide cat..
(guess we all know why.. :P)
Cowards.. Cowards.. Cowards.. i wonder how this word come about..
Everybody.. do a chicken dance for them..
ne ne ne ne ne ne ne.. quack quack quack quack..
-jer
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