Recently another God chaser came to me, i seems to relive a past that i dont choose to remember.
Many would think i have backslided but i think i just believe a different thing from them.
I spent too many years in the church in the past, it is nice and cosy to have people believing the same thing as you.
However, as time passes, i felt restricted to what they believe. yes, bible is the word of God and yes, Jesus is the son of God.
but why our belief of who God is and how he is, are totally different?
Maybe i have deviated from what they believe, maybe they can start calling me an extreme but i really dont care.
Someone tried to tell me otherwise recently that i was afraid of the bible and not want to talk about it. it makes me really think of these people again. i am not sure what to feel really. perhaps i disagree with them to a certain extend but i choose to believe in a bigger God.
When i was in the church, they tell you to behave according to their "code of conduct". now, this guy tells me that God's patience would run out. Threats works the worst on me and i hated anyone that uses this tactic to get people to believe in God.
They, the church goers, always claim this and that based on their own interpretation of scriptures and verses. i choose to believe in a God that truly knows all. Does God created bible or bible created God?
I believe in a God that is loving no matter what. then how come they kept emphasizing on sins and not his love? is sins bigger than God? God is afraid of sins?
Some stuff they said really make me ponder. the probationary period for men?? my goodness, who's time are they on? men's calculated time or God's time? i really not sure what are they talking about? every man try to predict the time for judgement, some said year 2000, but havent we pass it by 7 years now? i guess i dont believe their prediction as they are just mere man, yet so many given God's love a time span. how ridiculous to me.
If God created the world, doesn't he has the right to take it back anytime? if God created all things, doesn't he already know the presence of sins? He already know what would or wouldnt happen, i am not sure he wanted us to stup so low for this.
The best thing that God has given us is the free will and i guess we should allow all to exercise it since it is God's given. so people, do and say whatever you want.
i still believe my God is a loving, forgiving, BIG God whose ways are always higher, whose wisdom is unfathomable, whose love is always abound!! he is a BIG BIG GOD!!!!
